my belief in 'Trust' is at an all time low... but not lost.

A bloke's February 2004 online journal

I'm just going with the flow.
any red/green 'highlighted' words are links to deeper stuff.

Sunday 1st February
Enjoyed a lovely day with Maureen's
Grand-Daughter's Family

and wondered what Elisha Mary's lifetime will see.

Monday 2nd February
Saw my new chap at my NatWest Bank
and was pleased that he had confidence
to support me, as stuff gets sorted.

Later, I was pleased to unwind at Chapter
but bemused by personal misconceptions later.

Tuesday 3rd February
Once the hangover had passed
my discomfort continued
till misunderstandings were resolved.

Wednesday 4th February
Went to the Woody and tried my 3 'poems',
on Scotty and Tony, and was pleased.

Thursday 5th February
Went across the road to the Club,
and tried my 3 'poems' again,
and also enjoyed the opportunity to read them aloud.

Friday 6th February
Designed a logo for Invisible Lipstick
and then experimented with Iron-on printing paper.

Saturday 7th February
Not happy with the screen V ironed-on image
I eventually got a good compromise.

Sunday 8th February
Dropped off the iron-on's
and was happy to disappear for an hour
as I enjoyed the 'Bar' at a local Saltney pub.

Returned to Maureen's,
as Members of Chester Poets were arriving,
and was fascinated by the mix
as we ran through next Wednesday's performance.

Ironed-on the 'Invisible Lipstick' transfers
and it seems to work sufficiently discordantly.

Monday 9th February
Called in, to the Grosvenor Museum,
to understand the room's mechanics
with Maureen, before collecting
re-prints of some of her many Books.

Popped in, and saw Sarah and Michael at work
and, apart from Sarah's glow,
I do appreciate the Tax savings,
of the gift of some cartons of Marlboro,
and Mark's kind thought of Spanish Brandy.

Tuesday 10th February
Weak with Spanish pain
I attempted to catch up with module 2.

Wednesday 11th February
Michael went down South
in readiness for Kerry's birthday
and their weekend in Paris.

Read my three 'poems',
as part of the Chester Festival of Romance

I think I did all right, on the night,
considering my missing teeth.

Thursday 12th February
Fancied tracking down a fond 70's memory
and E-mailed Finbar Furey.

Friday 13th February
Suffered from the Spanish Brandy again.

Saturday 14th February
Received a nice reply from Finbar
and was pleased that he and Eddie are still making music.

Went to the cinema to see the final part of
'Lord of The Rings', with Maureen,
and we each thought it stunning.

Sunday 15th February
Tried working on my 2nd 'Life Coach' submission,
as I again attacked the pain
with the last of the Spanish anaesthetic.

Monday 16th February
Worked on my 2nd 'Life Coach' submission,
Motivation stuff.

Tuesday 17th February
Posted my 2nd 'Life Coach' submission.

Wednesday 18th February
Six Months since my Independence
was thrust upon me, unknowingly,
I avoided the Woody
where I had once taken solace,
following last year's news,
and relaxed with my Poetess
as we enjoyed silvered trout.

Thursday 19th February
Wrote a new Poem.

Michael returned home
and seems to have enjoyed the 'Paris' experience.

As a PIG, I enjoyed a nice First and a meal,
followed by a lovely chat with Maureen
and a special E-chat with Sally.

Friday 20th February
Vince travelled North
and we compared our common dis ease
but I was happy with my progress.

While I am still lost in the first level of The System,
I have been forced to accept my pain,
as my Doctor signed another 3 months of reduced ability,
and I invariably move to level two.

Saturday 21st February
Received a copy of a letter, from my Solicitor,
and, fortunately, understand Chinese whispers.

Michael and Steve enticed me to Absinthe
and I've no bad remembrance
but don't remember falling down.

Sunday 22nd February
Switched off
as I drank more water.

Fraser phoned to remind me
about his invite for Thursday.

Monday 23rd February
Fraser phoned again,
with genuine concern.

Later, I enjoyed the thought
that my poems
could make a book,
with my Poetess.

Tuesday 24th February
Dropped off my 3rd 3 month sick note to the system
and arranged to see my Divorce Solicitor next Wednesday
and later enjoyed experimenting with Steve B on MSN Messenger.

Wednesday 25th February
Felt at ease talking to Liz,
and later, in the Woody, Scotty.

Thursday 26th February
I really enjoyed attending Fraser's 'Chapter' do
and it turned out to be most memorable,
when the PGM popped in.

Friday 27th February
Sarah, Michael, Mark and Jason
came and took me for a meal,
before we approached the loft.

Saturday 28th February
Sarah and I sorted through
most of the emotional memorabilia,
that the loft had hidden from view,
and I came to terms with her brutal
'keep', 'car-boot' or 'dump' regime...
after a bit of haggling.

Found some more of my poems
among the boxes of photographs,
magazines, books and memories.

Sunday 29th February
Michael helped us with the last of the loft
and, when Mark and Jason arrived,
we hit the shed.

I was especially pleased
to find a bag of my deceased Father's papers,
which included some of his ' Poetry Society' poetry.