my belief in 'Trust' is at an all time low... but not lost.

A bloke's January 2004 online journal

I'm just going with the flow.
any red/green 'highlighted' words are links to deeper stuff.

1st January
After a nice evening across the road
I had to get up early, to take Michael to work.

Started reading an Introduction to NLP'
by Tad James, M.S., Ph.d, Certified NLP Master Trainer.

Friday 2nd January
Got a poorly Bank Statement
and organised two valuations on the House.

Enjoyed a drink at the Woody with Michael,
celebrating his 24th Birthday,
before he and his Friends went out Partying.

Saturday 3rd January
Moved stuff around in the Home
in readiness for the valuation of the house.

Sunday 4th January
Took down the Christmas decorations
and prepared for the probable house sale.

Charles and Timothy called in.

After a warming E-chat with Sally,
I interpreted my NLP notes as a web page.

Monday 5th January
Had the first valuation on the House done.

Listened to an interesting CD from
the Performance Partnership.

Tuesday 6th January
Had the second valuation on the House done.

Completed my notes on the
Course Guide & Prologue to 'Life Coaching'

Thursday 8th January
Got a bit maudlin and,
needing to try one more time,
I sent Sylvia a short phone text.

Friday 9th January
Woke to receive a caring text back
but there's no going back.

Received a nice E-mail in the evening,
from my Poetess, and I replied warmly.

Monday 12th January
Enjoyed chatting again with my Poetess
and I look forward to sharing a bottle of wine with her on Friday.

Tuesday 13th January
Sarah came and cooked a lovely meal for the three of us
and we talked about the waves we were each riding.

Michael is going to move down South, in April,
confident in himself to do the 'Independent Young Man' scene,
knowing that he's got the national support of his employers,
the support of Kerry's family
and my belief in him.

Sarah is looking to move to Devon, in the next couple of years,
when Mark, after College, is working as a Graphic Designer,
with her fond memories of the Uncles at Cushuish, Somerset
whereas my Dad came from up the road in Uffculm, Devon,

So it looks as though I need to be selling the house,
last week of April.

I sent a text to Sylvia
 asking her to make contact,
so that I could bring her up to date.

Goodness only knows what I want to do next.

Wednesday 14th January
Sylvia phoned and I informed her of the Family discussion.

Went to the Woody, for a pint and a warm up,
and was surprised to meet a mother loving misogynist.

Thursday 15th January
Received notification that I was now eligible
for an extra 25p per week from the System
along with a Giro for 450p.

After three days of not having any hot water or heating,
it was wonderful to have Alan and Chris repair the boiler.

In the evening, I enjoyed John's invitation
to attend a Burns Night celebration,
complete with Haggis and Piper.

Friday 16th January
Borrowed Michael's car and enjoyed a gorgeous meal,
at The Fox and Grapes, Hawarden, with my Poetess,

before exploring the many delights of a lush Shiraz.

Saturday 17th January
Left Maureen in time to surprise Michael,
by picking him up from work,
and when Sarah popped down from the office,
I was happy that we were happy.

Monday 19th January
As my skin is at it's best for years
I took up Rachel's kind offer
of another go in the sun-shower.

Attempted to finish my first 'workbook'
in my Life Coaching Course,
the self analysis stuff...

Sarah and Mark popped round
and Kerry rejoined us
so I was able to check some of my course work
by their view of me
before Mark and I sorted out a Mark Logo.

Tuesday 20th January
Posted my first 'Life Coach' submission.

Wednesday 21st January
Enjoyed introducing Maureen to my world.

Thursday 22nd January
It was refreshing to talk\listen to Maureen and, later,
late for a Meeting, and a meal, at Hamilton Chapter,
I was pleased that she had found one of my lost 70's poems.

Saturday 24th January
Felt stable enough in life
to retake the Rheti Enneagram test again...
Type 5, The Investigator: 24
Type 9, The Peacemaker: 22
Type 7, The Enthusiast: 21
Type 1, The Reformer: 17
Type 4, The Individualist: 15
Type 8, The Challenger: 12
Type 3, The Achiever: 12
Type 2, The Helper: 11
Type 6, The Loyalist: 10

Monday 26th January
Handed in the two valuations on the house to my Solicitor
and accepted that the family Home has to be sold
but also accepted that I might actually enjoy Bachelordom again.

Tuesday 27th January
After a telephone call from my Solicitor,
I spoke with Sylvia, which confirmed that there was no going back
and I accepted that I must continue 'going with the flow'.

I especially enjoyed a visit to Maureen's home, and family,
and reading some of my unpublished 'old' poems.

Wednesday 28th January
Sarah came and cooked us another lovely meal
before she and Mark jet off for a week of 'sunnier' climes
and, after stating that my health was so, so, much better,
she suggested that I might have been 'allergic' to her mum.

Paul phoned from 'down South'
and I was pleased that he is doing well.

I returned Sarah home
and was able to tell her
that there was now no going back.

Thursday 29th January
Phoned my Bank
and arranged an urgent meeting
on Monday.

Maureen phoned and confirmed
that I was to read three of my Poems
as a Chester Poet, on the 11th February,
as part of the Chester Festival of Romance.

Friday 30th January
Perchance, I was able to test my Poems
 on Sally, my First true Love,
and was pleased by her response.