my belief in 'Trust' is at an all time low... but not lost.

A bloke's March 2004 online journal

I'm just going with the flow.
any red/green 'highlighted' words are links to deeper stuff.

Monday 1st March
My Solicitor's assistant phoned, and as I've no rush,
I've got a new meeting on the 15th.

Honestly chatting to my Poetess on the phone,
it was obvious that my present predicament
had irritated her sufficiently for her to build a list
but I look forward to us meeting again,
as Chester Poets, as Friends.

Charlie dropped in and, needing a Pint,
I enjoyed introducing him
to a Monday night conversation at the 'Woody'.

Tuesday 2nd March
A painful day,
as I sorted through my Dad's handwritten papers.

Wednesday 3rd March
Another painful day.

Received a nice E-mail
about my web endeavours,
from a guy called Leo,
and I felt rapport.

Thursday 4th March
Got a phone call from Steve, Michael's friend,
asking if I fancied a Pint with them, in the Woody,
and I enjoyed chatting with such a nice youthful group
even though 'Rosy' used expletives, often.

Friday 5th March
Colin had kindly invited me to his Broadsmith Chapter Installation
and I also enjoyed chatting with Bob and Les about today's SRIA.

Partook of a lovely E-chat with Sally
before exploring the various meanings of the word 'occult'.

 Saturday 6th March
Michael headed South in readiness for his Interview on Monday
and by night, I attacked my timeline.

Sunday 7th March
While I should have concentrated on realities 'debt' stuff,
I continued to update my timeline, despite the pain,
and was later saddened to discover that someone else
is claiming copyright authorship
of the humble timeline endeavours,
which I'm most proud of.

While I should be annoyed, I'm must accept that I'm chuffed
that they also copied most of my more esoteric guesses
and included them in their 'Teacher's Guide'.

Monday 8th March
Still miffed at the plagiarism,
I unwound with a chat with Ernie, Scotty and Tony in the Woody's Bar.

Tuesday 9th March
The pain cancelled another day.

Mark, my Son in Law, came round
and we looked into Ginsberg
before Michael returned
and I was proud that Michael was now a Next 7
even though Sarah (a 2) thought him worthy of a 6.

Wednesday 10th March
Enjoyed Cyril's invitation to a Whitby 3rd,
for David, and a Festive Board with Roger,
who has been, I was surprised, reading
these humble diary escapades of mine.

I was, later, also happy to E-chat with Steve
about how I progress this Website, and his... further.

Thursday 11th March
Apathy still rules as I ignore mail, and responsibilities,
as the System sent me another heavy form and,
knowing that I must face painful stuff ahead,
I relaxed later with the chaps from Hooton Park.

Friday 12th March
After chatting with Doug and Peter,
I realized that I really don't want to move,
I like this home and Neighbours,
 close to my local pub and club,
and want to stay in Ellesmere Port, my birthplace.
Why should my runaway wife cause me to move?
Am I trying to be too accommodating to her?

Saturday 13th March
Been thinking about my conversation with Doug
and I'm looking forward to talking on Monday
after I've had my meeting with my Solicitor.

Received a nice E-mail from Roger,
who was chuffed at his Internet mention,
and later received a much needed 'lovely' boost from Sally.

Sunday 14th March
I should have done stuff
but didn't.

Monday 15th March
Doug drove me into Town and we sorted out a 3 Year anomaly
before I saw my Solicitor, she seemed much more cuddly this time,
and we were both confused at my ex's original 'speedy' expectations.

I managed to unwind in the Woody Bar later,
even though some Blokes can be Territorial over newcomers.

Tuesday 16th March
Eventually received an unsatisfactory reply
from the Nuffield Foundation
about the Timeline copy.

Wednesday 17th March
Steve called round and we chatted over a Pint,
about how best we can develop this site,
in spite of my pains.

Just made it to the Doctors in time
and must return tomorrow to take a blood test.

Michael received the official notification of his promotion
and it looks as though he will be moving down South,
to prepare to start work at the Centrale Shopping Centre,
on the 10th April.

Thursday 18th March
Took the blood test eventually,
as the blood Nurse had gone home early,
and scanned my Dad's '1954' Ellesmere Port handbook for Vinnie.

Managed to get two forms filled in for the System.

Enjoyed Vinnie's invitation to Ben's 2'nd,
and an excellent meal,
before receiving an E-mail from the Nuffield Foundation
stating that they had removed their Timeline.

Went to bed with fond memories
after receiving an E-mail from Sally
and sending her A Whiter Shade of Pale.

Friday 19th March
Got stuck into the backlog of washing
and I tried to tidy up the house in readiness for Kerry's weekend visit.

After Mark E-mailed about his need for info on the Lüscher test,
I found some useful stuff about Colour at 'Tickle'
which I'd originally got involved with through their inkblot test



and I've now enjoyed experimenting
 with their on-line dating, as Chapinchap.

After chatting with my special long time friend, Sally, on AOL Messenger,
I received some useful advice from Steve about how to fill in an awkward form,
but still had an uncomfortable night.

  Saturday 20th March
Received notification that I, and my estranged wife,
have been invited to a Mediation Session on the 29th.

Peter picked me up at 10.20 A.M. and, on the way to pick up Doug,
I posted the 3 Forms to the System,
before we headed off to my Lodge Meeting in Manchester.

It was quite an outstanding day, with the PGM taking the Chair for a while,
and we retuned home, with a lot of good memories.

Thinking I would relax my tired body, I settled down to watch a bit of TV,
anaesthetic in hand, but couldn't resist picking up the E-mail later
and found that Sally had sent me a photo...
so many years passed and yet the original beauty remains,
no wonder I could never forget the fond memories of our youth.

Sunday 21st March
I should have done stuff
but wasn't even able to get out on Mother's Day.

Monday 22nd March
Kerry went back down South
and I wonder if I'll see her up here again
before Michael moves on.

I should have done stuff
but the pain limited me to tinkering
with my Timeline.

Tuesday 23rd March
Received an E-mail from the Nuffield Foundation
about developing a Timeline for them.

WARNING
I received a couple of fraudulent E-mails
supposedly from me, as support@drakesvision.com,
which are an untruth and carried another virus.

"Our main mailing server will be temporary unavaible for next two days,
to continue receiving mail in these days you have to configure our free
auto-forwarding service.
Further details can be obtained from attached file.
Attached file is protected with the password for security reasons. Password is 00032.
Cheers, The Drakesvision.com team"

As with the Virus gangs who are purporting to be me,
using electric@drakesvision.com to pass on their poison,
I can do nothing except suggest that you block that E-mail address
as I have never used it.

Received a new Graphics card for Michael's PC
and, as if life wasn't sad enough at the moment,
we ran a 3DMark test, with his PC recording 2930
while my old GeForce3 PC did 835.

Wednesday 24th March
Virus carrying E-mails topped 100,
with only 24 getting past my servers anti-virus
but the hundreds of Spam E-mails a day are destroying
the joy of getting up in the afternoon and reading the mail.

Thursday 25th March
The pain has now reached new levels,
which hurt more, after the ease of my Poetess period,
as I sorted out more friend's problems
but I was still unable to find answers to mine,
although Doug did give me a realist's pointer.

Friday 26th March
Brian phoned, and I was pleased that he had no hidden motive.
Later I chatted with Ralph and accepted that I must accept Charity.

Saturday 27th March
Saddened at England losing to the French at Rugby,
as my pain seems to be increasing,
but I'm sure that I can get back to the comfortable January levels
once this Meditation stuff is sorted
and Michael has his big night out.

Sunday 28th March
Searched for stuff that might be needed tomorrow
and soaked for a couple of hours to ease the pain.

Felt a lot better after Sally's E-mail
but still resorted to anaesthetic from next door.

Monday 29th March
Caught a bus into Chester and called into see Chris at Craftings
before the Mediation stuff.

After a strange half hour, I listened to the Mediator and, after my failed attempt
at 'Life Coach' training which my health has not allowed me to complete at the moment,
I understood the benefits, but was saddened that Sylvia hadn't bothered to turn up
because her Solicitor said that she didn't 'have' to attend.

I've now got a form to hand into my Solicitor
but would have been more happy for Sylvia to have realised the benefits.

On returning 'home'
I picked up my E-mail and was so pleased
to receive a lovely sentiment from Sally
and was able to have a bit of a sleep with a comforting smile.
Sarah then phoned and woke me
with concern for how the meeting had gone.

While I would have enjoyed Michael's company,
when I unwound in the Woody later,
I'm determined to get him there before he moves away.

Tuesday 30th March
Received a beautiful smile from Sally,
which made me more determined to get through this present stuff,
but I wasn't able to achieve anything today.

Wednesday 31st March
Unable to move without pain, once again I did little,
but Ian popped in and we chatted over a bottle of wine.