my belief in 'Trust' has been at an all time low...
but not lost. Time to move on.

A bloke's April 2006 online journal

Somebody told me that I worry too much
but I just keep on Rocking.
More info is available by clicking any red/green 'highlighted' words, which then links to deeper stuff.

Saturday 1st April
Watched Rugby, Wigan, different from England,
but could understand why Nick L supports Wigan,
before Paranormal John picked me up for a vigil at Plas Teg.

Sunday 2nd April
After the vigil, watched the F1 Australian Grand Prix 'live', in the morning,
before sleep claimed a few midday hours. and I dreamt,
before a TV afternoon and a bloke's chat with Tony A in the evening.

Monday 3rd April
Double checked my computations and anticipations
before a splendid Installation at Whitby Chapter,
knowing that I'm now cleared of 'responsibilities' till August,
believing that my forthcoming NLP Initiation will be fruitful
and my skin seems to be enjoying my re-thinking.

Listened to Beaver & Krause, Arlo Guthrie, Steve Earle and Leonard Cohen.

Tuesday 4th April
Grimaced as I received replies to my 'feel good' mailings, that I'd sent before sleep,
and was pleased that I hadn't gone too far
but the RSI overcame my arm until Ian M popped in for a chat.

Wednesday 5th April
Focused on my aims but did nothing.

Thursday 6th April
Didn't get stuff done... again
but was chuffed to receive a phone call from Michael
to say that he was coming 'up North' again for Sausage, Chips and Gravy
and I enjoyed a Pint in the Woody
before a bit of French 'Fredericks-Goldman-Jones' gobbledygook, that feels right.

After re-evaluation, I still remain an Enneagram 5.

Type 5, The Investigator... 7
Type 7, The Enthusiast... 5
Type 9, The Peacemaker... 4
Type 1, The Reformer... 4
Type 6, The Loyalist... 4
Type 3, The Achiever...4
Type 8, The Challenger... 4
Type 2, The Helper... 4
Type 4, The Individualist... 0

Friday 7th April
Michael arrived in the afternoon, and it was good to give him a Fatherly Hug,
before Kyle and Howard 'dragged us' to the Woody in the afternoon
and, in the evening, after a food break, I returned to the Woody,
while Michael enjoyed a night out with his friends
but I was surprised to find him in his bed on my return.

Saturday 8th April
Michael enjoyed his childhood friendships again
and I enjoyed watching TV
knowing I'd be there, to say 'sleep well' when he returned.

Sunday 9th April
I was still dressed in my Caftan, Sylvia arrived early, our understandings confused,
and she stepped inside, but Michael was ready, before his meal with his Mum, Sarah
and the new bloke, and I enjoyed chatting with Michael later, even through Time Team,
before his Friends arrived and Tony A phoned, to say that he would prefer his daughter
to prepare Roast Beef, Yorkshire Pudding, Roast Potatoes, Gravy, etc.
than our usual Sunday moans about women, but I was happy to be there for Michel's
early morning return, as I became enthralled by 'Frogs into Princes'.

Monday 10th April
Was awake, when Michael coerced me from my bed, and I drove him to the railway station,
aware that I could have driven him home, with focus\purpose,
but allowed the body to dictate and we merely hugged, as he returned to his new world,
before Paranormal John shared his worries, and then Tony A helped sort out the shed again
before a superb edition of 'Never Mind the Buzzcocks' and a happy Monday Pint, in the Woody.

Tuesday 11th April
The sniffles had progressed, hopefully just the common cold,
but I was pleased that the skin and arm had been OK, while Michael visited
but decided to experiment with a splendid isolation, as I explored A Special Girl deficiency.

Wednesday 12th April
Enjoyed doing nothing in the day before accepting Doug's invite, even though he was poorly,
and enjoyed an interesting Lecture, in good company, at Whitby Lodge before an early close, leaving enough time to try a 'black suit and tie' pint in the Woody's Bar, without many jibes.

'Funny Handshake' jokes accepted, with a smile.

Thursday 13th April
Picked up Doug's copy of the Judas Gospel
and enjoyed viewing it, in Ian M's company later, holding a different concept,
and we enjoyed the wine and Bloke's chat, after I'd wished my Sister a 'Happy Birthday'.

Friday 14th April
A Religious Day, prime target for a bit of isolation and thought.

Saturday 15th April
Chatted with Sarah and Lee on the phone, before more isolation,
but especially enjoyed an unexpected phone call from Sheena,
wishing me a 'Happy Easter'.

Sunday 16th April
Got motivated to have an hour in the garden,
and a lovely phone call with Michael and Kerry, before Tony A popped in
for a Sunday Chat and a lot more self-analysis later.

Monday 17th April
Enjoyed the lethargy of isolation again
but 'pulled myself together'
to enjoy a Monday pint in the Woody.

Tuesday 18th April
'Abstained from alcohol' night as I nearly got my replacement PC working to my expectations,
sort of, after the continuing problems with my No.1 PC.,
but still found it difficult to ignore the comfort zone of past pleasures.

Wednesday 19th April
Tony A popped in with his PC problems, and I enjoyed sorting 'PC stuff' again,
again without the proverbial 4-pack in the evening, aware of my Broadband benefits,
but still need my smoking crutch.

Thursday 20th April
Enjoyed a superb evening with Hooton Park members, as John B's guest.

Friday 21st April
Popped across the road, after an afternoon phone call from Doug,
and enjoyed a daytime event, helping,
but know that, after a phone chat with Nick L, I've got to change
and accept that my time is bill-able, before an enjoyable pint in the Woody, later.

Saturday 22nd April
Enjoyed watching a good 'football' match on TV, while pottering with Tony A's pc
and wandered across to the Woody later, and enjoyed a visit, later,
to the 'Whitby Social Club', with Ian, Scotty, Brian and Nick M,
before following up on an E-mail from Friends Reunited
which intrigued my present, inebriated, self-explorations.

Sunday 23rd April
Received an intriguing E-mail from Nick M, after last night, and felt good
before Tony A popped in for our Sunday Session
and my resolve of an early sleep was ruined later, as I realised that Mr Fixit was on TV.

Monday 24th April
Managed a coffee, before Doug popped in to collect the Masonic Club's PC, at 9.30 AM
and I made my 10.30 appointment, with my Consultant, at Clatterbridge,
and, accepted the shoulder shrug as he accepted my thoughts, but no relief,
before popping into the Masonic Hall to help Doug and, later,
after John M popped in to show me his new laptop, I enjoyed a Monday Pint in the Woody.

Pondered on Paul McKenna's call on Richard Bandler...
maybe I've been worrying too much, about my enjoyment of a nice steak, or pork chop,
using my few remaining teeth, vanity, no plastic, old age, deserted by a second wife,
as I enjoyed Leonard Cohen's 'Dear Heather' CD' again, and again.

Tuesday 25th April
Allowed my sniffles\sore-throat to control the day,
as I told my body to do it's worst, as I'm going to be Well this coming weekend,
and continued to 'focus' on my 'need for change' in my time, thru the evening\early morn'.

Apologies to Sheena and Nick M for not replying to their nice Internet connexions.

Wednesday 26th April
The TV was on, while I pondered my deficiencies, and strengths, before Tony A popped in,
and then John M... with a kindly bottle of Glenlivet, and I sipped as I watched The Apprentice, and toasted my future later, while remembering 'what happened' when I first listened
to The Doors, prior to my wanderings in Germany and Greece,
aware that I was who I was.

Thursday 27th April
Suffered from my enjoyment of the whisky, and introverted self-analysis,
but pulled myself together, to get out of Dressing-Gown mode,
to enjoy eye-contact in the Woody later.

Friday 28th April
Took deep breaths, aware that my 'middle of the road' viewpoint
hadn't provided Me with many 'excesses' in my memory
to fuel my desire for change, as I went to bed on the previous day of arising.

Saturday 29th April
Hardly slept, but was up for 7AM and arrived at Nick L's venue for registration
before a stunning day of NLP induction, which left my little brain befuddled... excitedly
but I had no problem in enjoying another early 'deep' sleep later, despite my confusion.

Sunday 30th April
Arrived for another 'early morning' registration and another superb day of mind probing,
which reminded me of my 'white belt' days of Ju-Jitsu, where I was unable to excess
as I realised that my 'Cool' understanding of '60s dreams had failed to produce peaks
of Motivation Memories, or Bad Memories, but I enjoyed helping other Members
of the Learning Team in confronting anomalies and I drove home later, still nicely confused
from Nick L's excellent training, ready to work on practicing his skills.

David, Barry's friend soon dropped in with his PC problems, and then Barry with PC problems
and, un-fed, I escaped to the Woody for a pint and practice but, while in good company,
was surprised at the number of 'Sunday Night Drinkers',
as I can't remember any time that I've been to 'the pub' on a Sunday
and was unable to clearly hear my friend's visions of their touch of reality.