my belief in 'Trust' has been at an all time low...
but not lost. Time to move on.

A bloke's July 2006 online journal

Oh Lonesome Me... but I keep on Rocking.
More info is available by clicking any red/green 'highlighted' words, which then links to deeper stuff.

Saturday 1st July
Phil P picked me up at 4, happenchance the start of a disappointing football quarter final,
and I enjoyed his and Mo's company, and Brian's later,
at Marion's Birthday celebrations, leading to another lovely late night with her Ian N.

Sunday 2nd July
My skin enjoyed the naked sunshine again, as I pottered and pondered,
before nipping into Chester to drop off a form
before enjoying an al-fresco chat with Tony A over a can or 2
and we both enjoyed seeing the Hedgehog's nocturnal visit, after Tony heard the snuffling,
before I chatted on 'Messenger' with Jay and Sheena, leading to 2 possible NLP practices.

Monday 3rd July
Disappointed when afternoon was evening when Paranormal John and Helen arrived,
but I enjoyed good company in the Woody later, while I was enjoying my researches,
before a bit of Theta Anchoring as I explored, much later.

Tuesday 4th July
Enjoyed a coffee with Roger J, when he popped in whilst passing
before nipping out to have a play with Mary J's router
and went out again, to the Woody to watch the non penalties, at half-time extra-time.

Wednesday 5th July
Filled in another form, forgetting futures, accepting feedback
amid the naked sun awaiting rain and enjoyed a glass of cool wine with Ian M,
as we shared the second semi-final, in the evening.

Thursday 6th July
Pondered and pottered before a late evenings chat in the Woody
with Ian N, Phil and Brian P, Nick M and Scotty
and enjoyed hearing German conversation again
and, after I'd introduced myself, in stilted welcome,
was pleased at the combined flow over a European Bar's foot-rail
and was also pleased to offer a Marlboro to Stephan
and to see the subsequent Rapport between Nick M and him.

Friday 7th July
Fellow Practioner Steve H popped in on his way back to Luton
and we enjoyed chatting, and some fish 'n chips much later,
before I enjoyed Nick M and Brian X's company, in a busy Woody much later
and fancied a female form again
but rationally realised my recent ignorance of my body's discomfort.

Saturday 8th July
Treated my spine and arm to some attention
as I switched off with Wimbledon and World Cup experiences
and accepted my understandings.

Sunday 9th July
Attacked the piles of mail that littered the table, as I enjoyed Wimbledon again
before Paranormal John and Helen arrived, on cue to interrupt the football final,
but enjoyed My Son Michael's phone call, after the start,
before Tony A and I enjoyed the extra time, and a can,
as I realised that stuff needs to change, dramatically.

Monday 10th July
Accepted that I need to use Exorex again, after my visit to my Consultant at the Hospital,
and arrived home, just before Sheila returned the mower and we enjoyed trustful chatting,
before my late evening visit to the Woody
where John H and I got chatting
and I was surprised later by the successful rapport here after.

Tuesday 11th July
Nervously enjoyed accepting that I was prepared for change, in the Solicitor's office,
and the positive result, especially as I've been allocated No. 5, which brought a smile,
before remembering how I'd coped with shock of starting a new short story in the Woody later.

Wednesday 12th July
Continued to sort my paperwork piles as I dried more washing in the naked sun
before a confusing phone call from Lee, from Chester, but realised the logic later
when I spoke on the phone with Sarah, alone in Split, and remember it well,
and understood why Lee left Sarah there, as he returned to England for his Grandma's Funeral,
knowing that he will be re-united with Sarah next week, another fond memory
on my 70's route to Greece, before I explored an interesting Wednesday visit to the Woody
as I contemplated my future.

Thursday 13th July
Understood my Son-in-Laws dilemma, as we spoke on Skype, and I, hopefully,
provided a conduit, before sharing Chronic shared thoughts with Vince on the phone,
as I accumulated more washing-line shirts in need of ironing, 17, awaiting rain to clear the air,
before a nice 'Thursday' visit to the Woody with friends,
before an enjoyable first listening of Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.

Friday 14th July
Woke later but arrived to pick up Wills, and was pleased to see Uncle Pat & Aunty Bet
in the morning, before Wills and I cleared my loft of boxed memories, despite the heat, before,
after returning Wills to Chester, I explored a pondering half-bottle of whisky again, alone-ish.

Saturday 15th July
A groggy wake-up led to a potter in the garden through the day and evening
as I wondered at how positive the sunshine is for my skin
as I rested the arm later in front of the TV.

Sunday 16th July
Tony A popped in, in the afternoon, to get some stuff of his from the shed
and after a brief visit to the supermarket, I enjoyed more pottering in the garden's heat
before he returned in the evening for our Sunday chats.

Monday 17th July
Lee popped in briefly, accompanied by his friend, and I enjoyed hearing
of his confidence building travels with Sarah, before he rejoins her tomorrow,
before I popped around to accept Doug's invite to a house clearance
before a lovely visit by Sheena, accompanied by her friend Mandy, as I showed her how
to control her website, before an enjoyable Monday pint in the Woody with more friends.

Tuesday 18th July
Received the training cards from Salad eventually, very impressed with their service,
before Sheena's problems became mine as I struggled as she did, in the afternoon heat,
but sorted it, before Ian M arrived for a nice alfresco wine and chat in the evening.

Wednesday 19th July
The naked sun becomes oppressive, hottest day, after a while, as I await the cleansing rain,
but chatted on the phone with Pete and we agreed on the 18th
before sharing a meal in the Woody again with Ernie as we celebrated his Birthday, his 75th.

Thursday 20th July
Pondered amongst boxes from the failed past in the continued heat, before Robin H popped in
to sort out his future corrections, before a lovely phone chat with my dear Son Michael
before a quick visit to Paula's problems prior to an enjoyable late-evening chat in the Woody.

Friday 21st July
Emptied more boxes and sifted through the debris, despite the arm's aggro, and was ready
 for a coffee break when Tony A popped in briefly, before finding the Family photo albums
but enjoyed a relaxing Skype chat with Sheena later before an early Light & Sound sleep.

Saturday 22nd July
Received my Certificate
as a Licensed Practioner of Neuro-Linguistic Programming.

Another fascinating day's training in The Success Programme before Nick L and I enjoyed
a chat as I listened to a stunning track, Runaway, from the young voice of Laura Mckenna,
that Nick, as her Coach, had recorded, which gave my spine a rare tingle,
and I trust that Jim will be able to help produce a worthy version to help spread the word
and on returning home, I enjoyed the Bob Harris show, confident that Laura would play well.

Sunday 23rd July
Intrigued by the adrenalin rush, as nerves were pushed hard by Nick L,
as most of the team completed his series of seminars, and, after Steve H and I shared
a grateful pint in Nick's local in the evening, I was grateful as I drove home,
pondering on the honest feedback from fellow students determined to develop the skills
that we had all learned through a superb NLP Success Systems training course.

Monday 24th July
Pete picked me up and we went and measured-up No. 5
before I visited Tony A's new abode, and borrowed his hedge trimmer,
before a solitary salad and surprise sharing of ideas with Nick M in the Woody later.

Tuesday 25th July
Sorted some more boxed stuff, amid the continuing heat,
before a brief visit to the Woody for a cooling pint
and then cleared stuff from a past PC before passing it on.

Wednesday 26th July
Starting to see the space emerging as more boxes get thinned through the afternoon
before Ian M (a 7) popped in, with his friend Dave E (a 9), in the evening and
we thoroughly enjoyed the confused clarity that Dave left with, and it wasn't just the wine.

Thursday 27th July
Sorted through the boxes of books and accepted that I would never look at many of them
as problems came and went, as I kept on putting a shirt on to answer the doorbells,
as I reclaimed a gold band, and was happy to wear it, after re-finding it,
that my Parents presented me with on my 21st, amid my mixed-up stuff box,
and was pleased to demonstrate the differences of left\right-hand Hugs in the Woody later.

Friday 28th July
Boxed up my books, and discarded the boxed books looking for a recipient, before sealing
a box of memories, my future book, past poems, photos, Private Eye 70/80's collection,
and enjoyed countering a gay guy's clever innuendos, without malice, in the Woody, later,
a communal place, accepting all, but discerning of all, without the need of any aggro,
and pondered on future understandings of Me being a close but distant Stranger elsewhere.

Saturday 29th July
Accepted confirmation of me moving my home on the 18th next
after waking late before Ian M, Dave E and Dave E arrived
and enjoyed exploring their problems through till evening
as I played DJ Drake as I replayed forgotten vinyl
before popping around to my good neighbour Tony and informed him of my moving.

Sunday 30th July
Disappointed that my acceptance of Now was being irritated by my Body
as you try to relax
maybe I should just Relax
I was happy to feel a Raindrop on my hand later, but no more
as Tony A and I shared a patio pint and compared our Progress.

Monday 31st July
Gave in and picked up the prescription and it hurt
but was pleased to help Paranormal John with his problem
and put Cousin Pete and Nick R in touch but the discomfortness
of the 'Exorex' smelly stuff wasn't conducive to a visit to the Woody
but I was fortunately able to enjoy helping my Sister, Margaret.